One week.... well by now its actually more like three days... two?

One week. One week is all I have left at my summer job. So much time has past so quickly. One moment I was driving home from school after a very hot and sweaty graduation. The next moment I’m heading back. Three months have past so quickly. I have learned quite a lot these past few months. I have learned things that I could not have discovered in school. The worth of a hard day’s work. The strength to get up every morning and mindlessly do the same thing over an over again. The value of a job in these times of economic hardship. The value of your free time. And most of all…. The value of a person that can motivate you to get through it all. These past three months have also brought out aspects of me that I can’t say I really like. Each day I wake up I have to try so hard to not be instantly negative. Most days I don’t succeed. My coworkers will find anything to complain about and I feel that seeping into my life and my mannerisms lately…. I don’t like it. I feel bad because it affects the people I’m around more than myself. My family has noticed it for a while and its truly not fair to them. It’s also extremely not fair to my girlfriend of six months…. She’s the rock that gets me through things and I feel that its unfair to always be so negative. So I am sorry. In addition I am going to try my damnedest to become positive.

Friday is not only my last day of work but as I previously said, me and my girlfriend’s sixth month anniversary. :D it truly feels cheesy to say it but its true…. That day is a day of endings and beginnings… a door closes and another one opens… well kinda… I think I should probably be shot for using that cliché. :P anyways… I know in the grand scheme of things 6 months aren’t that long at all…. It doesn’t even feel like 6 months…. Which Im hoping is a good sign hehe…. Well the point is…. Happy anniversary three (or two depending on how you look at it….) days early. <3

Ramblings spanning two days

I realize no one is probably ever going to read this blog. Its almost comforting to know that. Its virtually impossible to just happen to come across it. I basically have to give someone the url to see it. And i like that. I like that i can write what i want without caring what other people think. i like that i can be myself without having to conform to fit into people comfort zones. Now for the miniscule amount of people who will read this, i dont mean that i will be cursing out anyone or making incredibly obscene comments. it just means i am allowing myself to write without hesitation.... meaning i can put an emoticon without feeling bad, or not capitalizing my "i"s or using apostrophes. :) i like that freedom. Society pressures us to be so formal in our writing (esp. if youre in college) yet we speak every day in the bastardized vernacular of this language we call english. My girlfriend's class "theme" or "statement" was "What are we Waiting For?", yet as one of her teachers pointed out it should be "For What are we Waiting".... since a sentence should never end with a Preposition. Normally i would agree but in this blog.... i couldnt care less :) So i hope you few who read this are not offended by my lack of correct grammar and punctuation. thats just how a roll ;)

Sorry that i went off on a bit of a tangent. like most of these blogposts i really dont have much of a purpose. basically i just wanted to explain my place of employment of the summer for posterity's sake. I work at an ice cream warehouse right now. at the beginning of the summer i was working 6:30-5 but now work 8-5 everyday. the days seem endless but i see the end in sight and i cannot wait. this job has taught me many things, as any job should. most importantly it has taught me the worth of a good education, how lucky i am to be getting one, and to work hard at college to avoid working here for the rest of my life. not to say its a bad job. i mean hey... its a job. and in this economy i have to take what i can get. but really i wouldnt be able to do it for the rest of my life. i feel so trapped as it is right now. well ive rambled enough for one post.